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I thought I'd come and share that with everyone. Our daughters: age 15 and 13 yrs. Our sons: age 13 and 9 yrs. They will be baptized on the 27th of July....just one day before my 39th birthday. What a wonderful birthday present for me!
After the 27th, the only person to not be baptized will be my dh. He has a strong faith, but does not feel like he needs to be baptized. I disagree, but it is his decision and I support that and will continue to pray for him.
Also I have a update on our unemployment status. I did sign a full-time teaching contract for the 2008/2009 school year. I'll be teaching kindergarten at a private Catholic school.
Dh has yet to find a job. After I pay bills on August 5th, our savings will be gone and if he does not start making money before Sept 5th rolls around.....well, I have faith that won't happen. He is interviewing this coming week for a job. Lets hope this one gets offered to him.
Have a great day!
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I thought I'd come and share that with everyone. Our daughters: age 15 and 13 yrs. Our sons: age 13 and 9 yrs. They will be baptized on the 27th of July....just one day before my 39th birthday. What a wonderful birthday present for me!
WHat a wonderful event - and a wonderful day to do it - my birthday is the 27th lol
Congrats on the teaching job. And continuing to pray for your husband to get a job.
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Mama to Chelsey, turning 19, 8yo Zoey & 5yo Roman
Thanks Your support and words really mean a lot to me.
I'll update hopefully this week sometime with a job for dh!!!!! What is a bummer is that this summer has just been wasted with us being in "waiting mode" and interviewing for jobs and with us living off of savings, we have not gone anywhere or spent any extra money. However, I'm so thankful that we did have enough saved up to get us by for 2 months......but realize in the future, we need to have more like 6 months set back in savings in the event of a job loss.
Michelle I am so happy for your family, and for your job! Are you Catholic now?
Last night was bad in my life. I went outside and was sitting down, and I felt angry that God doesn't exist. I wanted someone on my side. I still don't really think he does at all, but I wished for that faith I used to have. And then I remembered all the perfectionism I became obsessed with, and anyway... your sig statement immediately came to mind. I feel angry and cheated somehow. And I have no clue why I'm sharing something so personal w/you and on the board LOL. I guess I feel like I don't exist right now anyway, so why not.
Much love to you and your family. Your dh will find a job!
Congratulations!! It's so exciting to see our children walking with the Lord. I cried so hard when my girls were baptized.
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Michelle I am so happy for your family, and for your job! Are you Catholic now?
Last night was bad in my life. I went outside and was sitting down, and I felt angry that God doesn't exist. I wanted someone on my side. I still don't really think he does at all, but I wished for that faith I used to have. And then I remembered all the perfectionism I became obsessed with, and anyway... your sig statement immediately came to mind. I feel angry and cheated somehow. And I have no clue why I'm sharing something so personal w/you and on the board LOL. I guess I feel like I don't exist right now anyway, so why not.
Much love to you and your family. Your dh will find a job!
What you experienced was a "works-based" religion. God is not about that. He changes your heart so that you WANT to do the right thing - but He's also not there to strike you down if you do something wrong. ((HUGS))
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Ann
SAHM to 4 beautiful children Lauren ('90), Nicole ('92), Robert ('00) and Joanna ('02) and wife to Bob for 23 years.
Michelle I am so happy for your family, and for your job! Are you Catholic now?
Last night was bad in my life. I went outside and was sitting down, and I felt angry that God doesn't exist. I wanted someone on my side. I still don't really think he does at all, but I wished for that faith I used to have. And then I remembered all the perfectionism I became obsessed with, and anyway... your sig statement immediately came to mind. I feel angry and cheated somehow. And I have no clue why I'm sharing something so personal w/you and on the board LOL. I guess I feel like I don't exist right now anyway, so why not.
Much love to you and your family. Your dh will find a job!
No, I'm not yet joining but am continuing to study in-depth and will come into communion with the church in the spring when they bring in new members. (Easter 2009) It (Catholicism) is not a quick join type of thing which is really quite refreshing and sits well with me and my personal history etc....It makes me think of how I've heard that the Jewish faith is another one where they don't bring you in quickly but want you to fully understand and have time to question and question some more and be a part of the community first. (not sure if that is true about the Jewish faith) However, if my anulment takes longer than that (Easter 2009), I'll have to wait until that is granted. (I was married for about 10 months....nearly 19 years ago) If that comes through sooner than Easter, I think I do have the option of coming into communion with the church (becoming a member) sooner than Easter and I'd do it for sure.
Long answer huh.....am I capable of a short answer? *lol at myself*
Yeah, the perfectionism that comes either directly or indirectly through some churches is not good in my opinion and I honestly don't think that is coming from the God I know, love, and worship. I think some of us are more sensitive to falling into that kind of spiritual dysfunction....I know I use to be that way in my 20's. I remember the pressure of perfectionism that I experienced back in the day when I was in another religion that really fostered this and it took me years and a lot of anger, seeking, rebellion against God, and nearly-agnosticism before I came to just seek God on my own through my Bible reading and just prayer and more prayer. (I was at what I call my spiritual bottom...just hanging on by a thread at that point in my life...this was back in late spring 2005 if my memory is working correctly)
Life can really knock us down....my heart does truly feel empathy for where you are finding yourself spiritually at this time in your life. Feeling like you don't exist....I totally get that. I came to the point of saying/thinking "heck, why bother anyway?" I just wanted to give up on hope, having any faith and belief and just try to live as happy of a life as I could while I had time alive on earth and then when it was over and I was dead...well, I was dead. Without getting into a great amount of detail, I can tell you that I think I know what you mean to a large extent with what you said above.
Not going to try to bash you with my Bible or anything....but if I can pray for you, I would find it an honor to do so. I have come to love praying the rosary and often like to pray a decade specifically for one person and this is what I'd be doing with you as my intention for one of the decades in the prayer. I especially like to go to the church in the day when there are not others there and sit in the peaceful silence and pray or just sit and look at the tabernacle. Just sharing so you'd have a visual of what I'd be doing with your name and prayer.
Anyway, I'm chatty tonight. I'm exctied for the children on Sunday. They had their final instructional time with the Priest this morning....he was making sure they understood basics from the Bible story from Adam/Eve to Jesus and a bit beyond that. It was good for me to hear again.
My husband will find out this coming week if he got the job that he really really wants.
I want to say more but can't get the words to form correctly from my heart to my brain to the keyboard.
Feeling like you don't exist....I totally get that. I came to the point of saying/thinking "heck, why bother anyway?" I just wanted to give up on hope, having any faith and belief and just try to live as happy of a life as I could while I had time alive on earth and then when it was over and I was dead...well, I was dead. Without getting into a great amount of detail, I can tell you that I think I know what you mean to a large extent with what you said above.
My feeling of not existing had more to do w/the circumstances of my life and not religion. But I feel better now. It was a rough couple of days.
I completely feel like you described after that though. I am trying to live a happy life. If anything, not believing in a God has made me realize this is all I have so I can make the most of it. Versus feeling like the "next life" is when you have the most joy.
Oh, to be able to sit and talk w/you for hours, Michelle. I truly am so happy for you and your family, and that you all desire the same spiritual path.
Let us know what happens w/that job!
And yes, I would be honored to have you pray for me if you so desire. Thank you.
The ceremony was beautiful! My gosh.....the meaning and everything that I can not put into words.
My husband decided to also get baptized and will do so within this next month....he has not set a date yet.
Dh is still looking for employment...............here the first of September if he does not have a good job, we will have to go on public assistance and will need to start selling things to try to hold onto our house.
Your support and words really mean a lot to me. 
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