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I can't talk about the details here. Not now. Maybe later in Sisters.
But tonight I lost my Christian faith. Imagine holding a glass in your hand. Now imagine that glass slipping out of your hands and onto the floor, shattering into a million pieces. It happened just like that, and that fast.
I assume I am not one of the chosen ones. I assume I am predestined not to be "saved". I have no idea what my path will be now. But this path is over.
I feel numb and cold. I just don't have anything else to give.
What is ironic to me is that I have prayed for Meeshi to become a Christian for 4 years now, every single time I read a post of hers. As she enters her journey of faith, i am leaving mine.
Anna, we are all the chosen ones. There is no such thing as predestination where only a few are selected to go to heaven. Jesus came so that all might be saved.
I don't know what you are going through, but I think we all struggle with doubts and failings at different points in our lives. One of my favorite sayings is the Japanese Proverb that goes "Fall down six times, stand up seven." That's how I feel about this life - it's just a series of falling down and then standing up, brushing ourselves off and moving on again.
Big {{{hugs}}} to you. I hope you find the peace that you need and deserve.
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I completely understand! I had the same experience a few years ago. I am finally at peace with the loss....which it was. It does make you view the world in a completely different way though.
I am sorry, Anna. If you do feel like posting any more if the details, we will be here to listen.
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honey, I don't know what's going on - I hope it's not related to the adoption stuff.. but if you need/want to talk, I'm willing to listen - I'm not christian though..
I'm sorry... Perhaps it's God working in you in another way... You may be embarking into another level of God experience, transcending an aspect of your former faith.
Whatever your going through I hope you find peace and that whatever transpires is positive!
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Originally Posted by TeriMomOf4
I completely understand! I had the same experience a few years ago. I am finally at peace with the loss....which it was. It does make you view the world in a completely different way though.
what she said
hugs and forehead kisses to you mama, when i lost mine it was like a member of the family had died. i hope you find what you need to find on your journey.
I feel compelled to come back to this thread, Anna. I do not know what is going on, but I just wanted to share that there are several people in my church who have had their Faith tested in the most life-shaking ways. I, myself, have been tested in not so earth-shattering ways. One of our friends had their brilliant, talented son who was about to go to school to become a Pastor, injured badly in an accident where he was goin 30 miles an hour, hit a patch of wet leaves and smashed into a tree. Now, he struggles to get out a sentence, his body is broken and he will be living with his parents until they cannot care for him any longer. Yet, this family is the very essence of Joyus Faith. They are a true inspiration to Jay and I.
If you really feel you've completely lost your Faith, I can respect that. But perhaps, as Maureen said, what you're going through could be a life circumstance that strengthens it?
Again, I don't have a clue what is going on. I am always a PM away if you need to chat. ((((hugs)))
honey, I don't know what's going on - I hope it's not related to the adoption stuff.. but if you need/want to talk, I'm willing to listen - I'm not christian though..
No no, it is not related to the adoption at all. It is related to something that happened at church last night. I am still processing things today. Someone did something that triggered something HUGE from my childhood and it was the proverbial last straw. My DH is really pissed at them right now, because what happened seems innocent but flies in the face of everything he believes in as well.
Nobody was hurt, nothing catastropic. Just a very personal thing that cracked it all in half for me right there and then.
I will post in Sisters when I collect my thoughts. I cannot post here because my sister is a member of Amitys as well and the last thing I want to do is trigger a bunch of stuff for her with my post.
Anna, we are all the chosen ones. There is no such thing as predestination where only a few are selected to go to heaven. Jesus came so that all might be saved.
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Anna.
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