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I stopped the insanity.
I "comfort nursed" but that didn't last long at all -- he wanted MILK from those boobs and it was too much work to just suck them for not. And the hoses bothered him and he would gag if they were placed wrong, it was a fight to use that system. And a fight that left him mad and me in tears. He learned were is fingers were very early on, so comfort was not on his agenda.
I lost my milk supply due to hypothyroidism. It did not come back despite extremely exhausting measures of medications for my thyroid, DOM for milk supply, pumping, SNS, herbs, etc.
I don't regret my decision to stop the insanity and get back to being a mama to my other children. I do regret not getting hypothyroid medication until it was too late. I should have been treated in 2005 when I thought that was what was going on.
I know my son would have been better off if I had been able to give him breastmilk for a longer time period. I wish things had been different, but I can not regret something that was physically impossible, no matter how much I wish it were possible.
Hands down it's the hardest thing to do! Bravo to the mamas who make this work.
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2HBA2C, sewing mama and Gluten Free Baking Queen to my Celiacs DS2 and DS3
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