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Really need some help/support for relactating
Hi all! I have to give a little background so you understand where I am coming from.
When i tried to bf my first child....several things went wrong...first off, I had a very negative emotional response to it...we later figure out that it was related to my past sexual molestation by step father. Second, I did not produce hardly any milk...we found out that this was due to my PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) so DS was constantly crying 24/7 cause he was hungry, and I was so emotionally out there that I actually got to the point where I would be physically ill when he cried to eat. I hated myself as a mother cause I could not stand the fact that at that point I hated my own child.
Fast forward to my other 3 births, I did not even want to chance going through that again...so they went straight on the bottle from birth. Through a debate board on another site, I learned about the lact-aid system if I wanted to try again with my 5th. I really did....but fortunately, it was un-necessary as I started leaking colostrum in my 7th month and had a pretty sufficient supply at birth....(well, enough so I only had to supplement a few ounces which was good enough for me) at birth, she had such a tiny mouth that we had horrible latch problems...she made me bleed before I even left the hospital and the LC could not even get her latched on the right way...I quit at 2 weeks, after trying the shields...only to start again 2 days later after ..and then I was fine. I was still really detached from her though, and that worried me. .well soon after that, she started being very fussy, not passing bowels, horrible gas, reflux etc...and we were diagnosed with overactive let down-foremilk/hindmilk imbalance. since we already were feeding on just one side, the only other thing I was told to try by LC and LLL was the on-top feeding, which did not help...finally at 6 weeks, we stopped BF.
NOw, I regret it horribly. I know she is doing well...she is happy now and does not have any of the problems mentioned above. But I just had finally gotten to the point where I was enjoying BF her. Is there hope? If i re-lactate, will the OALD come back? does anyone have any experience with this?
Thanks for reading the novel!
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