i am 8 1/2 weeks post op now. sunday i attended a long, arduous (for me...well probably the mom too) induction (vba2c) and probably did too much. i don't really feel post-opish any longer unless i really overdo it, but yesterday and today i feel like i've been hit by a truck of bricks. it's that intense...not in a sick sort of way, not the flu or a fever...but my belly feels like it's falling off of me. it's so painful.

for those of you who have had a hysterectomy...full ab or lap, how long did it take you until you really were at 100%? most days i don't even notice. i have worn jeans a few times this past week...with a belt and in a smaller size no less...with no problems. i know this is from the induction.

OWE. headed back to bed again now that the kids are off to school but i can't do this every day. at some point i need to be productive again :lol: yet i'm hurting breastbone to knees...all i have is advil in the house and it's not helping.

I feel that way today and I have not even been to a birth yet (but soon-Rachie is due the 30th)
lol

I wish I woudl have journaled the healing of surgery, I know after 4 weeks I was clear to do lots of things and sometimes I felt I did too much too in the following months.

Sue and I have been reminding each other today to nourish ourselves. Tracey This Is definately your mantra today ok...I will take care of me today so I can renew my stregth to take care of others.
Becuase that is what you do. You are a healer and wise woman..in your home with your family, then to women and their families.
One woman can only take so much and then she needs to retreat to her cocoon to nourish herself again. Otherwise the consequences are usually severe.

back to bed with you. A little more time to recoup may be all you need my dear. You will come back...lol We need you too.....:D

kr...can i just say i love you? your words are always like a salve on a wound...really they are.

i've been eating like crap and running ragged. today (before i even read your message) i went back to bed for a bit and just lazed around. i did run some errands but the universe is watching out for me. i had photos to do today this evening at the lake, but they postponed for me (not my doing) so i'll be able to relax into the holiday with my family (charles will be here tomorrow.)

they all know i'm over-spent right now and are being so loving (all my boys, including dh :D )


may i ask a question of you? i'm finding that since my surgery...with each subsequent woman i attend, i'm feeling so very different. it's like a welling of something inside of me that just pours out to my moms. i wasn't like that before...i was loving and committed and passionate...but this is something else entirely. i wonder if it's just me and my imagination...but i'm not thinking so when i think of it logically. have you experienced anything like that, i know you don't "treat" people clinically but when making your products and counseling people...do you feel a different energy coming out of yourself than you had before your surgery?

it's nearly tangible...like reiki kind of (but i'm not reiki-trained)...others can feel it from my hands. it's weird and amazing and just...i don't know?

:P (i'll go hide now bc that sounds so looney...but not.)

YES YES AND YES. Can I say it again.

You know, before I started to change liek that I kept me life to myself. Now I really put alot of things out there. Why? becuase the younger women need to know the changes so they can start to evaluate thier own life adn be proactive.
The generations before us were taught to keep things to themselves and work it out with their doctors,
So our generation has been left in the dark by our role models.
(not all women of couse, georgiadoula comes to mind-although she is not very old but she is open to talk about things)

I think there is something powerful that happens with the change. Or maybe for those called to healing. I dont know for sure which.
One thing I am sure of is that the roles of crone is far more important that I woudl have ever beleived.
There is almost an internal nudging to push you out the door and help the world.
For you that would be through birth. For me it could be in protecting endangered plants or helping someone overcome a cold...lol
We all have our gifts.

Woman I see now as incredibly powerful. Far more than we realize. And all that power can be chanelled for good.
I am certian power can come from you. It is an eternal wellspring inside the soul. I am not reiki trained either. sometimes I feel power come forth even in a prayer for soemone.
Or else we are both looney:D At least we can relate about it :hahaha:

Which by the way I need you to counsel me. Somewhere on the market I have soem details about my health and I think I am hypothyroid.
****, I was working slowly at a cure for the world before it happened to me!!!
If you see a hypothyroid post, can you pop in and comment. It is getting tough.

Which by the way I need you to counsel me. Somewhere on the market I have soem details about my health and I think I am hypothyroid.
****, I was working slowly at a cure for the world before it happened to me!!!
If you see a hypothyroid post, can you pop in and comment. It is getting tough.

yep. i'll reply to it in a bit...may be tonight or tomorrow but i'll pop in, ok? today ended up insanely crazy busy.

No problem. I totally understand

I gotta say that I drank soem herb tea high in Vitamin d and I feel tons better. The pain is down to so little I feel tons better.
Family mama suggested Vitamin D and so glad she did.

i'm starting to wonder about vit d myself as well...