Did I seee a post that your scan came back with some spots?

I just wanted you to know that we're all thinking of you and praying for you.

Is there anything you, or the boys, need? Will you be going through chemo again? Anything we can help with at all?

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Oh thank you for asking and Yes, my chest x-ray six weeks ago came back with spots. The tumor I had removed two days after Benjamin was born has matatizied to my lungs. I have about 10 small spots.

I am doing chemo again ( I had chemo about 3 years ago- but it was a different type of chemo). I am on a three week cycle- week one I get one chemo drug, week two I get two chemo drugs, and week three I have off. I have completed two cycles.

This week is my week off and I get to feel "normal." The boys and I are planning on cleaning out the garage some.

I go back on the 24th to have another chest x-ray and see the progress. I will also start another cycle that week.

You know in spite of how bad it seems to have cancer in the lungs things are very, very positive. This was caught early- my last x-ray was in October when Benjamin was born and it was clear- so this was caught within the first six months. This treatment is from MD Anderson cancer center in Texas so it's one of the latest and greatest and there is much success. The doctor says that the spots will shrink and or just disappear.

We are getting a lot of support from my husbands work and from friends at church. I go up on Tuesdays and someone from church will drive me- it's about a 1 1/2 hour drive each way and after a treatment I am tired and a bit nausea. My dh stays home with all the boys that day. My twins look at it as a party day with Daddy- they get to play x-box, have special treats, do to the dollar store- you know the things they don't normal do. Then Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights someone from church will bring us dinner. Those days I'm just really tired and don't have a lot of energy.

I have lost my hair again- but hey, it's just hair and it grows back. My twins are wanting a hair cut to have no hair so then we will all be bald (DH shaves his head weekly because of the military job). The talented mamas at sewingmamas have sent caps for me to wear.

So, in asking if I need anything- I'd have to say no. We have all of our needs met and it's working out. I could always use any prayers, positive thoughts, well wishes, etc.

This experience has really opened my eyes to how precious life really is. Not one of us are promised another day. There's that song by Tim McGraw and it talks about living life as though you were dying. There's a phrase that goes along the lines of tomorrow is a gift and you have eternity to think about what you did with it. So, for me I have made my relationship to my family and my God my priorities in life.

I'll keep you updated as time goes on. Thank you though for asking and showing concern.

Tawnya

i'm thinking about you too!

Oh wow.. I'm sorry you're going through this again - but your inner strength is inspiring.

You are such a wonderful mama and friend Tawnya. I have been thinking about you constantly for a couple days and just wishing you peace and love. :hug: :heart:

Val

Did you get the package I sent to you? :lol: I put it in the mail after talking to you last. Add a bit more color to your life. :)

:big hug:

...oh my...I am so glad you have such wonderful support. I am thinking of you as well, mama!

If you do need anything, please let me know. I would be happy to send you anything.

Tawnya, big hugs! If there is anything you need, please let me know. Ann Marie (aka sewsew on SewingMamas)

Thinking of you Tawnya.

((hugs)) and prayers. :)

Sending you lots of love and good thoughts. :hug:

you remain in my prayers. You are a miracle!

Tawnya, I missed this before. :hug: I will be praying for you.

In my thoughts as well Tawnya....((hugs))

I am doing well- I was in the ER last weekend due to red, warm, and swelling leg. I was worried it might be another blood clot but it wasn't. They put me on an anti biotic treating me for cellutitus. I had to post pone my normal Tuesday chemo until Friday.

I am feeling fine though- just a bit tired.

I have next week off. I go up on the 15th for another CT scan to see the progress. Praying for more positive results- last week x-ray showed that the spots are not increasing in side or spreading, doctor was trying to compare a chest x-ray to a ct scan and he couldn't quite tell how much they were shrinking. His nurses were gone so they couldn't find the original chest x-ray, but he could at least say it wasn't getting worse. That's the kind of news we want to hear!

Gas prices are going up and up here- where are they not- and the trips to the city are long- 1 1/2 hours each way, but we manage. At least my dh is on salary at work and they don't mind him missing a day or so here and there to take care of me and the boys. He'll go in on a weekend or work later to make up for it.

Thank you for the continued prayers and positive thoughts. I know they are helping.

Tawnya

:hug: Tawnya

Thinking of you, Tawnya.

Do you need gas money?

wow, tawnya! thanks for the reminder of how important it is to put my relationship with God and my family first.

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I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.