Don has been gone 5 hours and I want to cry. Gosh I just want my husband around. I just want normal weekends where no one has to practice cuffing, or frisking, or boot polishing, or anything else. I want my husband to be able to mow the lawn and take the kids while I nap, and finish a task he says he is going to do. I want a husband who doesn't have to spend 3 hours or more in the car just so we can see him... but I also want a husband who comes home.

I am sure this is some sort of hormonal something or other, but ****it... I am just so beat. I want things to magically get better... I want to be able to plant in my garden and sit outside without feeling like I am forgetting something. I want to feel on top of things again.

And some cookies. Cookies would be good. Easter candy is getting old.

*hugs*

many hugs!!!! BTDT on different levels with my dh. He is now on a normal schedule but the money is gone... I would totally rather have dh than the money.


(((HUGS)) again!! If you lived closer I would bring you some cookies. If I mailed them, by the time you got them they would be gross!!

wait, I just whipped these up for you... hope you like them :hahaha: (I hope it makes you laugh because it is just meant to lighten the mood!!)

http://pic1.picturetrail.com/VOL1157/4051965/9721751/244728969.jpg

:hug: Things will get better. And cookies do help. ;)

wait, I just whipped these up for you... hope you like them :hahaha: (I hope it makes you laugh because it is just meant to lighten the mood!!)

http://pic1.picturetrail.com/VOL1157/4051965/9721751/244728969.jpg

That's funny as hell... thanks! I bet those are just hearts with the tops cut off... I bet those were for a batchlor party or something.

Off to clean the garage.

Gosh I miss him.

Val

:hug:

:hug: :hug:

I'm sorry...hope today is better

:rub: hope today is better for you!

Sandi! Congrats on Luke... he is a doll! Give me stats woman. I need them... Logan is pushing 15lbs and is a week from being 3 mos old. He is laughing, he has breast preferances, and he is trying to sit up in his car seat. Much too much like a baby already. ;) I need my newborn fix.

Yes, doing better everyone. 1 lb of bad chocolate and 10 episodes of Grey's Anatomy later. I am about to go mow the lawn. I just let myself fall head first into that show and it made my issues seem petty.

I did this last year when Don was at academy with Alias. I watched 10 YEARS worth of Friends when I was bedrest and hypermesis.... I apparently am starting a trend that whenever something REALLY heavy is going down... I pick a new Blockbuster tv show rental. This year it is Grey's Anatomy.

I did also take vitamins, drink over a gallon of water, make a huge pasta salad, plant lettuce, and put a bunch of stuff I have been wanting to take to Goodwill on freecycle (most was picked up last night. God that felt good.) oh and rearranged the back patio. Off to mow while the kids are napping before the rain starts again.

Val

So Val - how much longer till Don's training is over? When will the clouds lift for you? Isn't it in May?

May 18th. Just 5 days after our 7th anniversery. We will have been doing this for 5 YEARS in June. Isn't that amazing?

Things are better this week. Not with Don and all that persae, but just with the sun coming out and me getting out in the garden and such. We put in our sunflower house. We are planning our chicken coop. I planted and weeded my little heart out yesterday in th 60* weather when it wasn't raining on me. :D I feel so much better. I think that was a lot of this depression. Just the fact that we have been cooped up in the house for months now. It makes it all feel like it is never going to end when we can't even get out side to take a walk. You know?

Did you see my ticker??? Only 28 days to go! :) WoooooooHoooooooo! After that he will be on another type of training (but at his station so only 30 miles away instead of 70) and he will be on a regular shift (meaning 4 days a week, 10 hr days) so he will be home 3 days a week, and then he will be able to come home every night. I don't even know what I am going to do with him. (Well, yes I do... put him to work in the yard! lol!)

I'm glad things are better for you this week Mama - is there someone that can come over and relieve you when you feel down??

Unfortunetly... not really. I have a babysitter that lives across the street and I have called on her for the older kids so I can go and get groceries and the like with just the babe... but the babe is too young yet to have anyone else watch him.

Just 3 weeks and two days. Sigh... it is coming. Slowly but surely. :)

Val

Wow - you have a lot on your hands. As we both know, with such a little beanie it definately gets easier and it gets easier fairly quickly, but when you need a break NOW 'fairly quickly' doesn't quite cut it. Soon you'll look back on this and wonder how the heck you did it :)