Lets hope this gets some of it out of my house huh?

I have been having a really hard week. I don't know why, but I am completely emotional. May be hormones. I did start my cycle last month (a week ago now). So who knows. But I am pretty much always nearly in tears. Don doesn't come home until at least tomorrow night... he was hoping to stay up there to do mock scenes on Wed.... so that means I won't see him until Friday. I am just maxed... and lonely... and really wanting to get projects done, but I can't.

I rented the first disk of Grey's Anatomy. I feel like allowing myself to fall into that show head first. I had never allowed it before because people said it was like ER and that show never appealed to me. But I also never watched it. I knew it was like crack. Don't do it... don't REALLY watch it. Because you will loose yourself and that is all you want to do. But honestly... that is all I can do. Everything else is done in 20 minute spurts between nursing, making meals, taking them to boyscouts, and school picture functions and everything else. I have no room in my head for the things I want to do. I haven't planted anything in my garden yet. All I do is plan. (Alex planted peas. I miss my son right now too).

Sorry about the whine. I didn't start this post as a whine... but it sure turned out that way.

Anyway... I need space, I need help, I need time, I need... I just need my husband. 6 more weeks. That is all... isn't that amazing? Only 6 more weeks. I am going to take a quick shower and get out of the house now.

Val

:rub: Hope your shower and getting out of the house helps, hon.

I'm having one of those days too. Kids are home sick, I started cleaning and got the living room decluttered and vacuumed, then went upstairs to find Jake's diaper leaked all over the wool comforter, floor, the beanbag pillow - everywhere. And it looks like someone made a toy bomb and exploded it up there. It threw me over the edge when Jake started dragging his clean clothes (all of them, they were folded in a laundry basket and organized) down the stairs for the third time today.

:hug: Yes... I am having that kind of day... except the kids are being great. and I just want to cry. Hormones... it HAS to be hormones. I may actually take some Midol... see if that will help. The sun is out... at least for the moment. My feet are cold from walking around in the wet grass barefooted.

I am so lonely. That is the biggest part of this. Don got home last night and had to study and read and then he polished his boots... I got dinner. Becuase I shut OFF the tv and made him move in to the table with me... but after that was done he was back to the books. I am just really lonely.

:hug: I'm sorry. That just sounds so hard. :(

I can't even imagine. T and I have not been apart more than 4 days in 15 years and I can't imagine myself dealing with everything else without him for months at a time.

I hope the next 6 weeks goes by fast.

May these next six weeks fly by! Look how far you guys have come.

And seeing this post motivated me to post some stuff on freecycle that I was going to take to the dump because I didn't think anyone would want it. And it's all going to be picked up tonight! So thanks.

Kerri

Isn't it amazing that we have gone through 14 weeks of this? It just blows me away. 9 wks last year, and 14 so far this year. Just too much.

The fish tank and the table and chairs have already been picked up. The printer is supposed to be picked up tonight at 7 (in about 45 minutes), and the changing table and clothes have been asked about several times.

I sold the armoire. They are sending me a check and then when the check clears he will have his shippers come pick it up. I sold it to a company. That's ok right? I feel like I sold my soul. I put so much work into that thing... but they are paying what I asked for it ($200) so...

I did go and get Grey's anatomy and watched the entire disk. I may go get the next one tonight. There are more in the second season too arn't there?

It has been a lonely lazy day. But I am in a better place now, and my back poarch is on its way to looking wonderful. ;)

Val