J and I found out some great news last night that has eased a bit of worry from our minds... Then, later in the night we got a chance to really reconnect. Seems with him working so hard and my pregnancy sickness, we had a week or so where I felt so disconnected from him. Well, we spent a few hours of quality time, right in the middle of the night, and I feel like a new woman this morning.

Then, this morning, I am hanging out with my girls doing yoga and watching a squirrel on the window sill. I suddenly got so teary eyed, thankful that they are so sweet and bright and healthy.

Now, I am relaxing with a cup of hot cocoa, feeling the babe wiggle now and then. Nico and Kaya have been out in the snow for over an hour now and the house is so peacful. I can see them from the window as they tromp through the snow... I bet they'll be out there for another half hour at least. I am so thankful that they are able to entertain themselves and play together so wonderfully.

A few weeks ago, I thought depression was going to swallow me up, but I am feeling the clouds break a bit. At this moment in time, I feel so content and blessed for all that I have.

Have you found bliss recently? Are you feeling blessed? Please share? :)

Ah, that is so sweet Mama :)

I'm so glad that the suns rays are touching your face! I always had a rough time thru winter in Chicago. It felt sooo good to feel the warmth of the sun, even if thru a window.

I'm blessed to have a WONDERFUL group of friends irl and online. I have started an local AP online group which is really blooming and that feels really good.

:rainbow:

That is AWESOME, Meesh. I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better!!! :heart:

I'm feeling a little better, too. I was blessed with the opportunity to help someone else a bit, so that always makes me feel great. :D

Meeshi, glad to hear you are feeling so great right now. I too was able to reconnect a little with my husband last night. It wasn't a long time, since he didn't get home until almost 11, but the kids were asleep for a change and we were able to just relax and talk before falling asleep which was nice. After readnig about some of the tragedies mama's here are going through I am feeling very blessed. My life isn't perfect, far from it, and my son has autism, but he is happy for the most part and I still get to hug all my kids each and every night. I hugged them tighter, and spent more time with them this week, and was more patient. (Well, a little anyway) :) I have a wonderful family and the BEST in-law family, I indeed feel very blessed. Thanks for the great thread.

I'm glad you are feeling better.

Now send me some snow. :lol:

i gotta tell ya, i couldn't have been happier picking up my scripts from walgreens yesterday...xanax never felt so blissful. ;)

i gotta tell ya, i couldn't have been happier picking up my scripts from walgreens yesterday...xanax never felt so blissful. ;)
:hahaha:

I'm glad to hear you are feeling so good!

I've had to take a step back and really focus on how blessed we are these days..lol With Dh losing his job it's been hard, I haven't seen him for more than 10 minutes a day for the last week because he his working a painting job that has to be done by tomorrow. I've had to keep in my mind the fact that we are so lucky that Dh can find good paying work when ever he needs to because of his construction back ground, not many people can do that.
Lately my boys have been driving me crazy..lol but i look at them, while the older is reading to the younger and they are giggling, i know how lucky i am to have two happy healthy boys.
I'm having a really good pregnancy baby is healthy and moving around alot! :) I've even managed to sell some stuff at the markets on saturdays to help out..
When i really step back and look at our life I am so happy with everthing.

Awww, that is so sweet!!!

Well, bliss for me... many of you know my dad had a stroke in November. Well, the past few days at the hospital, my dad has been smiling more and more. He hasn't smiled in a LONG time and when we saw him doing that, we asked him if it was a smile and he wiggled his toes (meaning yes.) I cried right there... tears of happiness, and my dad cried too. I asked him if he was upset ~ he shook his foot no ... I asked him if he was crying because he was happy and he wiggled his toes!

Little things like this ~ I really need it... just a smile can make me cry! :flowerkit

That's wonderful. I love your writing, Meeshi, I can just *feel* where you are and how you are feeling, like I was sitting right next to you. And yk what? A cup of hot cocoa sounds really good right now!

I had to go to the ER yesterday and I have an awful throat infection and am taking major pain meds just to be able to swallow. But I'm on the mend, and despite the sickness - I feel really blessed right now too. Dh has a job that allowed him to drop everything and take me to the ER yesterday, the kids' school came through and took the kids to afterschool care (where they had never been!) so he could be with me at the ER, he was able to take off today to take care of me and watch Jake, who has no school today.

And we're on the brink of buying a house that will be comfortable for us monthly, is our dream homestead, we have no other debts at all right now, I'm in my most favorite place in the world, I'm beginning my own creative work once again (writing) and overall things are just going so incredibly well. Jake is healthy and I'm totally at peace with both his diagnoses. Especially "autism" - I realize that Jake is Jake, and have been reading about Crystal Children lately and realize that I see he is one of them - he's bright, connected, cuddly, happy and sweet. Just on another plane altogether. I used to think he was from the stars, as he was so fascinated with stars as a toddler (and still is). And maybe that isn't such a crazy idea, as I begin reading about the new Crystal Children. Right now he's pretty healthy and even though he's recently lost some weight, we're working hard to put it back on - I feel blessed that his school is so caring and responsive and doing everything they can to help in that regard.

Oh, life is good. Last night, looking at life through the lens of someone seriously ill, I felt blessed just to be alive. Every second of life is an incredible gift.

Wow, Mamas! Thanks so much for sharing your stories. How wonderful to share in your joys!

I really feel blissed out by all the wonderful things that have happened w. us. We've been waiting for a long while for dh's orders to come (we were thinking we were going to leave in the Fall), come to find out that there might be another, better opportunity for us elsewhere. I've founds a great group of Mamas here & IRL that I can REALLY relate to as far as how we parent & hs'ing. Just in a really happy place. Thanks for letting me share.

I'm so glad you're feeling better all around! :hug:

we asked him if it was a smile and he wiggled his toes (meaning yes.) I cried right there... tears of happiness, and my dad cried too. I asked him if he was upset ~ he shook his foot no ... I asked him if he was crying because he was happy and he wiggled his toes!


:tear: OMG!!! That's AWESOME!!!!! :wah: I'm crying happy tears over here. :D

way OT - but Meeshi did you see that this mama has a Boppy for $6?
http://www.amitymama.com/vb/showthread.php?p=1990890#post1990890
(or did you already find one)? :)

:tear: OMG!!! That's AWESOME!!!!! :wah: I'm crying happy tears over here. :D

Thank you! As I wrote it, I cried again! :big hug: Thank you for reading my story!

I'm really happy for you, Meeshi. You sound so blissful. I probably shouldn't say this out loud, but you are one of my favorite mamas on AW. I love your posts, and how you live your life. I imagine that we would be great friends if we lived in the same community.

As for me, each night as I lie in bed I say 3 affirmations. I didn't consciously set out to do this; they just occured to me one night. They have kept me so focused on the happiness in my life.

I sleep in the arms of peace.

This reminds me to always be striving toward a peaceful life. In my food choices, protecting the environment, non-violence, personal interactions, etc.

I am warm in the embrace of my family's love.

I cling to this. No matter what the day has brought, I bring myself back to the reality that my boys and my husband love me dearly. Even when I make mistakes, even when I get so busy I tend to forget. I physically hold on to that love and let it warm me as I drift off to sleep.

My life is beautiful.

It really is. I can't tell you how it feels to have finally come to a place where I realize this.

And now, in just an hour and a half, I will set out on a journey to Hawaii with my little family and extended kin (FIL and SMIL). To share the adventure and beauty with my children is as exciting as actually getting to go (our first time). I feel ready to go, to embrace the beauty and peace and just let it fill me with love.

Peace...

:tear: OMG!!! That's AWESOME!!!!! :wah: I'm crying happy tears over here. :D

Me too! I had to take my glasses off to wipe my tears away.. ((((Jenine)))) Im glad you're dad is happy.

I have a sick toddler and a sick dh finally back at work (I can't decide which is worse, lol) over here, so things have been anything but blissful this week.

BUT...

Today Henry went down for a 2 hour nap. Sitting on my couch working on my knitting and watching The OC that I taped last night all the way through without having anyone rub snot on me or poop through their pants? BLLLLIIIIISSSSSS.

Some days you have to take it where you can get it, lol.

Awww, that is so sweet!!!

Well, bliss for me... many of you know my dad had a stroke in November. Well, the past few days at the hospital, my dad has been smiling more and more. He hasn't smiled in a LONG time and when we saw him doing that, we asked him if it was a smile and he wiggled his toes (meaning yes.) I cried right there... tears of happiness, and my dad cried too. I asked him if he was upset ~ he shook his foot no ... I asked him if he was crying because he was happy and he wiggled his toes!

Little things like this ~ I really need it... just a smile can make me cry! :flowerkit
:big hug:

Meeshi~You sounds so happy! I'm glad you are feeling better!

Jenine~I luv ya & I am so happy to hear about your Dad! I can really picture you just grinning from ear to ear & crying with pure joy! :big hug:

Today has been a great day! We had our playgroup Valentine's Party this morning & just being around amazing mom's who all care so much about each other is just amazing to me! All of these momma's & their children mean so much to me!

I have the best husband & children I could ever ask for! I am truly blessed to have them in my life. I am sure my life would be so different without them! I never knew I could love 3 people as much as I do them! :heart:

My friends are so different culturally, spiritually, etc & that is just so cool! I love learning from them & experiencing so many different things from them!

I am happy I am eatting much better than ever before & working my booty off at the gym!

I truly am at peace & total bliss with my life at this very moment!