I can't explain it, I wake up at night in a cold sweat and check her, she's laying right next to me, and if she's sleeping quietly I feel that ice cold in my veins sensation. I worried a little with the boys, but I think the losses last year made it more "real" for me. Does that make sense? I wonder if this is just part of the crazy hormone shifts. It's ok to be concerend, but for Pete's sake, it's bordering on obsession!

Jessica

yep, yep, yep. Imagine how bad I freaked that Faith was sick on the 8th. Can't explain it...but I am constantly checking this babe. Wishing I had an apnea monitor, like MG did. *seriously* considering getting one of those angel monitors. it goes off if it detects no movement for 20 secs. can't figure out why I'm so bothered either...maybe because Mary Grace had apnea...but I think you're right. The sweet babes lost this time last year are on my mind. :(
*hugging this baby so close*

i was like that with jaycie. i think my m/c before her had a lot to do with it. i don't think i actually slept for the first 2 weeks of her life; i had her in the bassinet and until i put her in my bed, i wasn't able to sleep. (ironically, this is how i learned what cosleeping was~lol). i'm not that concerned w/ cameron but i also bought an angelcare monitor that will go off if he ever stops breathing for more than 20 seconds. he prefers to sleep in the pack and play so it was really useful and gave me a peace of mind for a while.

I still freak out.

Especially if I go into his room, and he feels cold. Freaks me out. I don't know how many times I've woken him up, just because I couldn't feel him breathing right away.

I can't wait to hit 6 months, I hope I'll relax a little bit then.

I thought I was a freak for worrying but yeah. I don't sleep very well, constantly checking her, wiggling her, watching her breathe.

I was like that for the first year of each of my childrens' lives. It was a big reason why I co-slept with them. With my first one though I really wasn't "allowed" to co-sleep so I spent the first year of his life sleeping in one hour intervals and checking/watching him sleep. How is that for obsessed? LOL

It was just my biggest fear with my babies and it was such a comfort when I could finally breathe that sigh of relief and know that at least one thing was out of the way.

Same here with all three I am (was) that way *sigh*
Speaking of, off to check him.

YES! SIDS is on my mind everytime she falls asleep. Of course, it's hard to not think about it when I know two amitybabies were lost to SIDS last year :( and I have to be worried as Ellery will only sleep on her tummy. She'll sleep on her side overnight so she can nurse but for naps, it's on her tummy or else she wakes up within 15 mins and then she's a mess of fussiness. I've pondered getting the angelcare monitor...but instead we have a camera baby monitor so I can watch her too. I can actually see her breathing and moving so I feel good about leaving her upstairs while I'm downstairs.