I have been doing a lot better in some ways and worse in others. But on Tuesday (the full moon) I released my dad with two of my friends. It was magical... just magical. And very much just what I needed. I don't really feel he owes me anything... and I am also feeling the loss of this house already. I talked with Alex's school and there is no way he could comute from out of district... they are just too full. That really put a bad taste on things if we move... I am ready to get into a two bedroom apt just to stay in the same neighborhood. But at the same time, A LOT of the emotional stuff that is connected with this house and this sale has left me. It no longer ties my stomach in knots to think of leaving... and I don't cry about it often. I really had a break though and I thank you all so much for your love and support. It won't be long before we know what is going to happen. Jason (our basement tennent) is thinking of moving because this is all so up in the air and it is not his family, so he has very little attached to this house, and I don't blame him, but if he moves when his lease is up (April 1st) then we will not be able to pay rent anymore... and we can't ask someone else to live down there with this all so up in the air. So I think that is our moving date if something doesn't change. So that is what I am planning on, and just looking lightly around here to find somewhere we can afford that is in this area. Crossing my fingers, but I will write Frank the biggest heart renching letter I have ever written if I don't find anything... pride be ****ed... I am not uprooting Alex again. The kid has enough social trouble... we would have to medicate his ADD if we had to switch schools again...

Anyway.... the up and down of things is they are all still up and down. But I am handling it better, and not nearly so angry. I think that is looking up. We will be fine whereever we are... what ever our next move is, it is temporary. So we can live through anything... right??

Thanks agian for your love and support... it meant the world to me.

Love Val

:big hug: Val ... you mean alot to us Mamas here! You are so sweet & such a wealth of healthy information!!!! Please keep your chin up!!!!

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Val, I don't understand why it would matter to the school if you moved out of the district. Alex is already occupying a seat at the school. Can you apply for a district transfer? Does the school have a psychologist that you can speak with and have him/her agree that a change in schools would prove to be to difficult for him?

I hope you can find a place soon.

It was the school psyc that I talked with... it is not that he would have to leave this year... I am talking next year. Alex has been to two different schools and had bad experiences in both... this year is the first year he is doing well. They finally stopped labeling him as a "troubled child" and started asking "why is he doing what he does"... and for the first time ever, he is enjoying school. They are doing the right testing on him and we are finally getting some answers. And all of this I asked for three years ago... with the support we are getting from the school, I keep thinking that I don't want to loose that... or start all over again.

Anyway... I still have hope for a home around here. I am going to keep looking... but like I said... I have very little emotional investment in strait-out asking Frank for a grace. Who knows.... he may give it to us... and if he doesn't... well at least I know I did all that I could to keep Alex there, and I will be able to tell him that later when he yells at me about hating homeschooling. lol...

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Love Val