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hey cheryl, my babies were two weeks further along than yours so i did have it easier than you. i also had several years consulting on my side. even with that it was hard. really hard. it was absolutely beyond exhausting to pump, then go feed them, then wash everything, then go pump, then go wash everything. after several days i reached a point of actually fearing sleep. i am sure you know what i mean, it is an insane state of mind that only moms of multiples and soldiers reach i think.
i digress.
try your very hardest to look at what you are doing instead of what you are not doing. be proud of what you and your wonderful body have accomplished so far. try not to put too much stock into expectations (yours, dh's, nurses', dr's, anyone's). right now you have to do what you can and let the rest be.
do what you can do and don't panic about the rest. you will be surprised how this method will get you where you want to be with your babies. i do know how hard it is to give your baby a bottle when you just pumped. it was all so terribly difficult, without a doubt the biggest challenge of my life. you will rise to the occasion.
((((((hugs))))))) i know where you are. i wish i could hop on a plane and help you right now. the best i can do is offer a phone call. please pm me your # if you want me to call.
and i only have one nagging thing to say: i KNOW there are people asking what you need! tell them you need a ride to the hospital so you don't have to pay parking. let someone coordinate who picks you up and who drops you off. there is a reason you have celebrity status right now...it is because you need it.
you are doing great cheryl. please pm me if there is anything at all i can do for you from here.
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