Thanks guys, posting this was really scarey, taking the thing I hate most about myself and putting it up for everyone to judge
been nauseus all afternoon.....
I am becoming much more aware of my reactions and really noticing in my children the things that upset me the most are the things that I do too.
Like I expained to dh this morning, when ds is upset his reaction is to scream and often hit....well duh that's exactly what the adults do too! then he gets in trouble for that!
I'm having a hard time getting my point across to him b/c when I say ____is what WE do wrong he hears only what HE does wrong, yes I am criticizing OUR parenting skills. mine just as much as his
It is so hard to calm down and use good judgment when both kids are using my lap to fight on and dd is SO intense she's asked me a question 16 times before I clear my throat much less think it over and give her an answer at that point I'm gonna say no to anything! This is the hard part! this is the part that counts the most! we cannot keep doing it the way that seems easiest at the time! I wish more than anything we had never gone down this road, I always thought I knew better but when I go tthere I took the easy way.
I"m shutting up now, I"m just rambling at this point, I need some support when I am ready to BLOW anybody got any ideas?
