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My time in this forum will be short lived. I went in and spoke with the Deli Mangager, explaining that I need to complete my committment to her, but that I want to be done.
Last Wednesday evening, my 20yos came to the store to see me. When I asked him what brought him there, he looked at me with a look of anguish and said, "Mom, I haven't seen you in THREE DAYS!" I knew then that I had to be home.
The rest of my family seems to systematically be reacting as well. My 4 year old has been having extremely loud screaming sessions and times of being shut down. My 7 year old keeps asking me almost every minute of the day when I am leaving, and being very surprised when I return home, even from a chiropractor appointment saying, "Mom, YOU'RE HOME!" It is all more than my family can handle, so Mark and I have decided that it is better to let my house in Illinois foreclose, than to bring about any more suffering upon my family.
Heaven knows that we have done everything we could to rectify this ever worsening financial disaster, but we just can't keep fighting it any longer. Ron and I purchased that house for $65 and invested time, elbow grease, and $$'s, to bring its value up to $102. However, the economy is SO bad that I can't even sell it for $50. IT SUCKS!!! And, it has been angering me that we can't even get out of it, what we initially purchased it at. I am not a quitter! However, this is a losing battle and we are already bearing a number of battle scars, with little room for more.
So, I'll be here for another 2 weeks, until the end of the year, then I'll quietly excuse myself and once again be a simple SAHM. I'll keep myself busy with birth work, because it is in my blood and I just can't get away from it, but I will no longer have an official job.
I so very happy that this forum is here as a wonderful support system for moms who do work outside of the home!! Keep up the good work!
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My 1st son and my 1st granddaughter -
It takes a real daddy to wear a baby girl blanket. 
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