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It went okay today, I was honest, but still encouraging I think. I wish someone had told me it would be this hard, so I wanted to be more realistic about the whole thing too.
I don't know. I don't feel like much of an example right now. And I'm so sick of her behaviour when I go out, that I've told her I'm just going to keep leaving her until she can learn to act better. Honestly, there is no reason for her to have a tantrum like that. She just can't handle not having her own way and I'm **** sick of it and maybe some practice will do her good? Or at least help her appreciate me or give me five minutes peace, even if I have to pay because she's worse when I get home. Not very AP of me, but I'm close to breaking point these days.
Yikes. Is this really the life I chose? What the hell was I thinking? Oh yeah, nothing. I didn't have a clue it would be anything like this.
And Meeshi, I totally know what you mean. All the kids can be doing the same thing, but it's Naomi that's bothering me! It just takes so long to attach to bigger kids I think.
It's so sad. These are the kids that need families the most, but they can just be so unlovable.
Kerri
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Mama to Cole (8), Naomi (7), Adam (7), and Noah (4)
All adopted - All breastfed
Wife to David for 12 years!
Breastfeeding Counsellor and Doula
Waiting to hear back about my midwifery school application.
UPDATE 1/Oct/2009: I Got In. Holy Crap. I Guess We Are Working On Moving To New Zealand In January 2009!
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