(((hugs))) mama, I know what it is like to stuggle with such difficult feelings about your own children
I hope you found some ways to convey your heart to the group of potential adoptive families. I know what a burden that responsibility can be.
While it is a different situation, I take calls from parents in the NICU who are deciding whether to raise, or put up for adoption, their little ones with Prader-Willi Syndrome. I feel an intense responsibility to not sugar coat the reality but it is hard to get across how amazing the experience is also how intense and all consuming it is.
Up until a year ago I would tell them that by the end of a hard day I could come back to seeing that I am blessed to be raising this beautiful child. Now, I honestly tell them that sometimes it is not until the end of the week that I can pull my head above water for long enough to see the purpose and the blessings of my path. I am prepared that in the future there may pass a month or even a year before my path still like the one I am supposed to be on. It is very hard emotionally and I am sending some of my hearts strength to you right now
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Jenn, mama to Nicholas and Jacob. Blessed to have been so loved by Peter.
Usborne books!!
www.ubah.com/Z1151
100% of my commision always goes straight to the Foundation for Prader-Willi Research!